Busy Jumping through Insurance Hoops

Well currently jumping through insurance company hoops. Seen the dietician $120 ouch! Seeing the medically supervised diet doctor too. Lost 9lbs so far :)
Really hard to stay on track though because want to eat but yet trying to fight with my mind right now. Mind says no dont eat but stomach is like please feed me more. lol.
I meet with the surgeon in late october. Cannot wait!
Really nervous though as the time gets closer. I feel in my heart I am doing the right thing, however, I am still scared all the same.
Have met a lot of great support people online so that really helps. Even some locals that I pretty much check in with on a weekly basis. Great friends - Stacy and Roxie they both have already went through the band. They both are doing very well with it. They were banded this year both just recently had their 2nd fills.
Some days it seems like the date will never get here. Then others, I am nervous and can't think straight. I pray to Jesus everyday to make sure this is the right thing. I try not to stress and I always leave things in Jesus' hands. If this is meant to be then the insurance will approve it if not then I am guessing it isn't meant to be.
I am just concerned because I was healthy a year ago. Low BP, Low Cholesterol, Low Blood Sugar no sleep apnea (diagnosed anyways). But today my BP is creeping up along w/ sugar and cholesterol. And yep you guessed it I have moderate to severe sleep apnea. no fun. and no sleep.
My family is super supportive. I just dont want to disappoint anyone mainly myself. Also I don't want my hubby to get upset with me for any reason.
I do worry in the back of my mind that he may leave me for a bigger girl when I lose weight. But he tells me on a daily basis that he is never leaving, no matter what size I am. So again leaving that is Gods hands. I dont know if anyone is reading this or not. I just want to talk to someone (or type to someone) about my concerns because I think my family maybe tired of hearing them LoL. See ya later :)

It Starts.....

Hello everyone or maybe no one :) I have been overweight all my life. As long as I can possibly remember. If I knew then what I know now then maybe I would have stopped those 2nd and 3rd helpings. LoL. But then again maybe not because I met my hubby because of my size. He is a "chubby chaser" a "fat admirer" whatever you want to call it. To me he is wonderful and he is my world and without him & our daughter, this journey wouldn't be possible. In 1996, I almost died from blood clots due to complications with birth control and phen fen. Very big scare. So I am not going to lie. I am worried and excited about the journey I am taking. My official journey towards to lap band started on 3/27/07. I made up my mind that I am not getting any younger or smaller. I went to the seminar for what I thought was going to be my surgeon. Completed tests and what not they requested. Then the 2nd week of June they leave a message for me stating that the surgeon is no longer doing the surgery. Well by this time I have already gotten everything done except the results from sleep study and chest xray. So anyways, started over with another doctor. So now I have to start medically supervised diet with new doctor before I can see surgeon. My goal is just to have the surgery by end of this year. I gotta lose 30 lbs I know that is going to be hard but I will do it.