Busy Jumping through Insurance Hoops

Well currently jumping through insurance company hoops. Seen the dietician $120 ouch! Seeing the medically supervised diet doctor too. Lost 9lbs so far :)
Really hard to stay on track though because want to eat but yet trying to fight with my mind right now. Mind says no dont eat but stomach is like please feed me more. lol.
I meet with the surgeon in late october. Cannot wait!
Really nervous though as the time gets closer. I feel in my heart I am doing the right thing, however, I am still scared all the same.
Have met a lot of great support people online so that really helps. Even some locals that I pretty much check in with on a weekly basis. Great friends - Stacy and Roxie they both have already went through the band. They both are doing very well with it. They were banded this year both just recently had their 2nd fills.
Some days it seems like the date will never get here. Then others, I am nervous and can't think straight. I pray to Jesus everyday to make sure this is the right thing. I try not to stress and I always leave things in Jesus' hands. If this is meant to be then the insurance will approve it if not then I am guessing it isn't meant to be.
I am just concerned because I was healthy a year ago. Low BP, Low Cholesterol, Low Blood Sugar no sleep apnea (diagnosed anyways). But today my BP is creeping up along w/ sugar and cholesterol. And yep you guessed it I have moderate to severe sleep apnea. no fun. and no sleep.
My family is super supportive. I just dont want to disappoint anyone mainly myself. Also I don't want my hubby to get upset with me for any reason.
I do worry in the back of my mind that he may leave me for a bigger girl when I lose weight. But he tells me on a daily basis that he is never leaving, no matter what size I am. So again leaving that is Gods hands. I dont know if anyone is reading this or not. I just want to talk to someone (or type to someone) about my concerns because I think my family maybe tired of hearing them LoL. See ya later :)